New Start

and here i am with a new beginning. i perhaps should have written this before i began but here it goes, at the end of Day 1 at the RDA Singapore.

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these past 6 weeks or so have been rather tumultuous and has been such a journey. i think I’ve learnt a lot from all of this being betrayed, questioning if I’ve made the right decision, almost wanting to go back on what i decided and then not; having the patience to try to be the bigger person, being the bigger person and thinking that it’s not worth it.

i felt so much support that i felt guilty about it for no reason at all, and now i am just grateful.

i wanted to make the right decision so badly it hurt and no one would tell me which was right or wrong. some told me to follow my heart (clearly wrong because that would be Karina and Mirabelle, who are simply in the -wrong- place), some tried to steer me in a direction and then immediately didnt commit simply because ‘it’s ultimately your decision’. well, yes. some told me ‘whatever you want’ but I’m sure secretly wanted me to pick a particular path. whatever it is, i made a decision, and I’m gonna ride it out. literally.

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over this whole time, there have been a few constants to whom I am immensely grateful. and no, i may not have been the kindest to them during this time, but believe me, i didnt mean it. and thank you for still being here through this entire ordeal.

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there are a few people who’ve been pillars of support this whole time and i think i wouldn’t have been able to get through days minute by minute without.

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i know the road ahead will be nothing but a climb and maybe i’ll have to make some sacrifices but i hope i will make this work.

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and winter came…

In the Morning

When I get on mirabelle and know that it’s a going to be a good day: that’s when I know my day is starting awesome 🙂

Today was one of those days.

She was mostly cooperative and I think we’re on the road to calm and some improvement.

come here…

Choice

When you’re taking steps
But need to go faster
We can speed through streets
So the shadows can’t catch up
When the corridors and all the stairs are making you tired
I will come for you
Set the building on fire

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aren’t you a nice mover? =)

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i think, mirabelle, we have a long way to go…

Clear Round

Aren’t you my Hero..?
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one more shot, with everything to lose.

Covering My Ears When You Speak

no one likes it when old stuff comes up again.

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i know i’ve said many times that i ABHOR this lalala song, but this one is bearable…

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oh my dear ponies… =) don’t you make my days!

Let’s Play Catch Up

Some things have come up recently that are slightly unsettling. And because of someone else’s oddness I am in a spot.

Let’s hope this is not half as long drawn and psychotic as the previous ones.
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On the other hand the clip queue is just abit too long for my liking. Clipping everyday except Wednesday is not cool. I mean I love clipping you know, but this is abit excessive. Like once i get down to it, I’m alright.. But yeah.. Ish..

I’m glad there’s chiro today! 🙂

Aileen Liew Li Li

So we’ve sorta given Lilli a nickname simply because she’s such a funny one. We’ve also given her a back story.

I think we need to get started on the Private/Public School chart for the horses, it’s gonna be hilarious!
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lick ya down..

Hua Yu Wee

And so it was seafood tonight at said restaurant. Okay, it’s very nice, but I think I could do with the cheaper alternative at Ban Leong Wah Hoe at casuarina.. 🙂

I didn’t have a bad day today in my opinion, most interesting was of course clipping Uhmber Un Prince. What a name right..? Anyway Uhmber is massive. Thanks is due here to Kim and Judith.

Maccers for lunch- I had a ‘mikmacmew, upsai wif cok’, and it was quite satisfying actually.. 🙂
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I just called to say ‘I love you’..

That Look

Every morning I walk through the stable and I know there’ll be those pretty eyes looking back at me.
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For all your weird and strange, for all the stupidity and ‘whaaaaaat are you doing?’ Moments, I’ll still try with you 🙂

Up and Down and All Around

This past week has been a huge one. In particular, I’m grateful for the opportunity to attend the FEI Dressage Educative Event and it was awesome cos it was the pilot run of the new FEI initiative. I learnt a whole lot.

Special thanks is due to Judith and Krystal for helping me out throughout the whole course. Also to all the people who encouraged me and believed in me the whole 4 days long.

I think most of all, I’m glad for this break. It’s a long time coming for me and I think I’m gonna have a great big sleep in tomorrow morning! 🙂

I hope things come together for me soon, I think I need a boost! 🙂

baby, am I doing too much?