secretly i hope that you (like i think i do) liked the past 5 years of your life better than whatever you had before. no, i dont know what you went through or how you grew up. i just know that i was tasked to do.
“make him better”.
and i dont know if you feel the same or you thought it was right. but from where I stood, i thought you came a long way, especially at the NEC.
the first time you were licking my hand: i thought “awesome, hope he doesnt bite me though”.
the first time we met daniel and he said “there’s something wrong with him, he’s nice, but something not quite so right”. i went “huh, what?” and he said “just keep riding, it will show up”. and i let it rest.
and we kept trying…2012 brought us here..
what daniel said came together yesterday, i suppose…
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when i applied for the job with the hope of being with you again, and got it. that’s when i knew how much you meant.
that first time i saw you lying down in the middle of the day was 2012 at the NEC: i smiled, hoping it was because you were secure enough.
the first time you made EQUAL stable management: i hoped that everyone would see what an amazing pony you were.
the first time you got shoes: “how brave is he?!” =) i was so proud of you.
every time we go “out for a run”. i re-realize how far you’ve come.
every time you take a child for a lesson, i realize how kind-hearted you are.
for all of it and more,
especially for carrying me (sometimes even literally) through everything we’ve been through and for keeping my pride in check, my confidence from dipping below zero.
believe me, i love you.
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In paradisum deducant te Angeli:
in tuo adventu suscipiant te Martyres,
et perducant te in civitatem sanctam Ierusalem.
Chorus Angelorum te suscipiat,
et cum Lazaro quondam paupere æternam habeas requiem.
v8- enamored 