Sucked Dry

yesterday, i lost all my contacts on my phone and thomas.. yes, what a juncture to be losing my contacts right? yes. okay. omg. i was SO incredibly pissed it was unbelievable.

yesterday, i met dad and kor for lunch and had executive chicken rice at tiong bahru. dad named it executive chicken rice because the guy can speak english..yes…roight! hahaa! i didnt have very much, but it was very, very satisfying..

kor and i got dropped at the borders junction and then he went back to werk and i went to mountE, but NOT before we decided to get dad an external hard drive for his birthday..hahhaa, it went along these lines

dad- “what if my computer fails? i need a thumbdrive to back up! so i want a big thumbdrive”

kor- “no, a thumbdrive is not big enough..there’s not enough space in the thumbdrive”

dad- “why?”

kor- -_-

me- why dont you get an external hard drive? it’s like a big thumbdrive!

kor- yeah! why not?

dad- is it? how big?

kor- depends on how much stuff you want to back-up!

dad- what if it fails also?

me- okay, dad, would you like TWO external hard drives?!

roighto…AHHAAHA

at mtE, i was too early, so i ended up walking in paragon…this was the sight..and emm..yesh..haha, i think everyone was wondering why i walked into THE CHILD allergy clinic..roight. yesh, i got all these weird stares..

and so came back at 2.30 from paragon to get a jab and donate 2 tubes of blood to allergy research..

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the afternoon was very pleasant, we even went to survey how the kovan residences look like..HAHAHA! and we also tried making jude take off her jacket..BUT she didnt..

the following is the progression of char, jude, ethel and i at grapevine..

over the progess of last night, we also met a very pleasant looking wait-staff at grapevine and jude was HAHAHA “we just wanted to say you’re very pretty!” omg..yes. and now we see how the night was for jude..

 

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and so we have the best conversations.

Old Times

This is gen

and we went to swensons at holland v. yes, swensons..i know, i never trusted it..and no, i dont expect much from it. but today was not bad.

i dont mind it, talking how we used to talk, not of the same things, but the same way. i like lunches like that..

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the many sides of john.

Ramfeezled

yes, friday was pleasant. ethel came over with some very good oreo cheesecake and then she helped me with some packing while transferring stuff from thomas to her hard drive..

and then we went to thomson plaza (we met eeee on the way! after i got kaya toast) to get more files and things for me..and then..i came home and she went back to settle some stuff..

i came home, packed abit, showered, and waited. HA, the childhood gang (or part of it) were coming for movie marathon..HA, so kor came back with cher, ethel came back, MELinda came, pui san came, michelle came and then MELvin came..

we ordered pizza: yes, 99.70 worth.

this is not all of it..

and we watched ‘fun with dick and jane’, ‘night at the the museum’ and then played balderdash! HAHA, it’s such a fun game…i came up to shower, ethel came up and they continued watching on til 5.30 in the morning when they went to prata house for breakfast…WOAH…i wasnt feeling too good, so yeah.. ethel stayed.. =)

which brought us to saturday when we and the folks went for beach road prawn noodools, sent ethel back..

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riding was tradetime with mike..

and before that, daniel was for some reason not teaching..and sitting with us.. omg, he said he can play the er-hu. like what the hell right? but then again, he uses logicpro8 on his imac at home, with humongous speakers..errmmm, according to him..yes. errm, we’ll never know..seeing as how daniel is an INDIAN man.. SO yes…and he keeps telling me that he’s seen me with my jeans off my ass and my messenger bag, slung low..ROIGHTO..and he kept buggin lil bro about his bad hair. i mean, he DOES have bad hair, but yeahhhh, hahhahhaaa!!

tradetime was a work out. wow. I FOUND MY WHIP! YAY! yes, i left it in the club last week..and yeah, it’s been miraculously found!

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9 mass.. bits of shopping, a good lunch and time spent. i like.

OLIE AND AUNTY PUAT CAME WITH A SUITCASE FOR ME!!! YEAHHH!!! i was so glad to hear from them..i was abit freaked i might not be able to see them..

jewelry is sexy. and i dont mind it when we swap roles..

we met marie and her man, jonathan for dinner at canele raffles city…hummsicals..well, i dont think very much of it..yeah..hmmm.. BUT the company mattered. we all had a very good laugh..and yah, marie and jon look excellent together! we popped over to harry’s after and yeahhhh, jonathan had a flaming lambo.. :D 

oh we met FRANCES TANG!!! after so long!

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because i know she’s here for me.

Incredible Hulk

yesterday, i went out with 3 people who’ve known me for a great long time..

first of, urs and yingjie, we watched the incredible hulk and had pepperlunch..HAHAHA, yingjie is just so funny, it’s insane, urs and i were quite entertained, with his electronic cigarette and all!! hahahaa!

we agreed that we’re a bunch of freak shows, really. sometime having problems with the world around us. but when we’re together, i dont think we give much of a damn what people think. hahaha, we even look somewhat like misfits..HAHAA

anyways, the movie wasnt too bad..hello liv tyler….i like marvel/action flicks cos there are very few (or none at all) sex scenes! my kind of movie..

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i met keith..we had bak chor mee and shared 8 scoops of ice cream at icekimo..this is us satisfied.

and he came over to claim his christmas present, yes, from last year, thats how forgetful we are, i was supposed to pass it to him when i saw him previously at WAFUUU sauce..but yeah.

it’s ABIT big..but yeah, i think he’s okay with it..

there so much we’ve been through..and when jerry came over for awhile before heading to 319 to do his work, i felt so grateful i have these neighborly buddies..

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today i spent the morning with dad, had breakfast, washed car, sent mama to toa payoh for her day care thing..i also realized how i’d miss mama and eeee and calling mama unitooth all the time; laughing at her socks and playing with her cheek pouches..HAHHAAA…

i started PACKING!! finally.. yes, mixed feelings, but yeah..

had lunch with sharon charles..and her cuzzin…very informative..not like very glam or anything, j8 food court and the hk cafe for a chat.. but very informative. 

i had dinner with kor. we caught up. i finally told him a few things and it felt better.. thanks for dinner!

this is my brother….not tonight, but quite recently..

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But you put on quite a show
You really had me going
But now it’s time to go
Curtain’s finally closing
That was quite a show
Very entertaining
But it’s over now 
Go on and take a bow

-courtesy of keith

One Track Mind

today i had breakfast at yakun myself at j8 and then walked around.. it was quite pleasant, spending time with me. =)

i got sent for dental at dr ang’s, park mall and then i met charmo for lunch..okay, we met sylvester her bro for coffee and then we had lunch.. it was so good seeing her again! i think we’ve come a long way from sec1. hahaa! yeah…

i went for neuromonics. and i told the guy all about how i dont see the point and everything-i got told the same thing. got sung the same song. as with everything about my tinnitus: same shit, different day.

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i had a conversation on the phone last night and i got abit emo BUT i was so grateful. i think it’s about time that i spent some time on me. not money, time. i think i’ve been out seeing people and spending time with everyone but me. and it’s not wrong, i dont think i regret seeing the people i’ve seen or am scheduled to see. i think i’ve made the decision and planned to see them obviously because i wanted to and i think it’s worth it. it’s just come to a point where i’ve realised what a chaotic mess im in. i’m not packed. i’m messing up dates. this and that, when i actually have an organizer. i have a date-book which i actually fill in and use, but i’ve just been going through the motions, not really putting alot of thought into what i’m doing. 

i’ve been meaning to make a list of things to bring and things to do before i go, but i haven’t. my desk is in a complete mess which i’ve just allowed to pile up and i’ve not actually sorted anything out yet. i’m freaking out and im not doing much about it. and i guess im not because some bit of me just wishes i’m staying. and no, i dont think i’m PREPARED to go. i think its just the hype that’s been getting me through this time. i havent really sat down and thought about what it’ll ACTUALLY be like living in another country that’s not asian. and no, i havent really thought about living with an OZ family. im not saying i dont want to go, or i regret my decision to go. it’s the pre-trip jitters. and i just need to get over it.

you know how this couple of weeks, i’ve been looking for stuff that’d help me: stationery, clothes, jackets. i think i should stop, take stock of what i have, center myself and really prepare MYSELF to go. all this time, i’ve been preparing my STUFF to go, preparing OTHER PEOPLE for my going. okay, you may think “erika, what is the problem? it’s only 2 years, you’ll be back prolly at the end of the year, maybe early next year, you’ll see everyone again, you can buy it when you’re back…”. you see, it’s not like that for me. they’re right, i will be back, it IS only 2 years. but i’d like my transition there to be quite seamless. i dont want to get over there and find out i’ve to re-buy stuff there cos i didnt bring it over. not that i WONT do any shopping there, i will. i want to be able to go over there knowing that i already have most of what i need and settle in nicely. 

not many people know this about me, but im not big on change. i know (rationally) that it’s good. i know that once im there, i will adapt. i know that i will have fun. i know that ive been there before, i know that aunty freida’s there. i know that after 2 years, i will eventually come back here. however, i KNOW also that i like familiarity and i like routine. im not saying i lead a boring life and love it. im just saying that i like to have bits of familiarity around me. it makes me feel comfy. im not materialistic, but i am HUGELY attached to some of my things. it’s one of those things about me: like i can’t function normally if im not wearing a watch. i guess i am kind of sentimental. okay, not the have-alot-of-photos-all-over-the-place type but yeah. 

therefore, i am going to take some time out and be with me before i go

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She’s a natural law, and she leaves me in awe
She deserves the applause, I surrender because
She used to look good to me, but now I find her…

In Response To Your Question

i stayed over at the bedok gramps last night. okay. it was a TAD bit uncomfy. to start the evening, there was some wayang from the coffeeshop to the nearby park..yeah, i have no idea why my granma reacts to explosively to stuff that is simply trivial. something just snapped and she started shouting madly that my grand-dad was ‘insane’ to be walking home instead of toward the park like we previosuly agreed. i mean, i seriously think it’s cos my grand-dad couldnt hear the convo to start with and therefore did not get the message, therefore decided to just walk home instead of to the park. anyways, it’s kinda sad, my grand-dad is RATHER deaf and has the usual old-people syndrome.. and then granma’s just kinda..well, herself- not being rude here, but i really think she IS kind of ( no, REALLY) weird sometimes.

okay, it’s not that i DONT like them, it’s not that i HATE being in their presence, i just have no idea what to talk to them about, my grandad doesnt say much save for ‘yes’ and ‘yah’. i am SO sure he cant hear anything and is just replying ‘yes’.. errr, my granma got started on talking about church..and then she started singing hymns loudly in the park. it was very strange. i didnt know what to do. which is precisely why i wondered why i said ‘okay’ to spending last night with them. i should have just visited

on the bright side, i cut and high-lit my hair today! i LIKE IT! okay, i did not pose. i pressed the button to take the pic and then i forgot it counts 3 before actually taking it. anyway. it is OBVIOUS i was doing/looking at something else..

we also met with uncle ram yesterday afternoon before going to the grampies. i like uncle ram. 

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i met ethel in the afternoon for abit and im so glad i did. it’s not that she works any sort of miracle or anything, she just helps me sort things out by letting me talk it out. thank you. and i know im not myself-im totally DMS-ing and i hate it too.

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and you know how on saturday night i was supposed to watch the incredible hulk with the riding bunch? didnt work out. no tix, so we roamed around and then ended up at newton to pig out. haha.

here’s lil bro with his huge-ass plate of cockles. WTH, i dunno how he finished it.

All Dressed In Love

 9 mass, kor came with..but he left early too cos of tuition…

=)

lunch..

let me be your accessory.

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but i am totally smitten.

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okay. right. everything rocked today until now-just thinking about tonight is just making me SUCH an emo bitch, it’s not even entertaining anymore. i dont even know why im being so affected AND i dont know why i even agreed to it.

B-Boyz & Ballerina

oh my. it was good, but emm..well, i enjoyed it. just that the plot was an excuse for them to dance? HAHAHAHA!! we met olie and her friend joyce..met fiona and dina..

dinner was..adesp..and my dear vanessa is still working there, wow! she’s great now! bar, cashier and service. wow! even i couldnt pull that..she’s the MAN! and im totally recommending that place now..theyve changed the menu and it’s now very good. the scenery has greatly deteriorated since i was werking there, but hey, it’s still a nice place..with friends, family or significant other..

=)

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what you looking at, boy..? i’ll show you what gay is. you want some, come get some..

Scream

i dont think lunch was too good. in fact, the noodles were quite gross. i hope the whole of beijing doesnt eat food like that. err, yeah. eeee and i were abit stunned.

anyway. 

i had a pleasant morning..and then of course i called DHL, UPS and FedEx about their shipping charges. okay, hahhaa, it’s either ex to ship (DHL) or they dont ship personal stuff at all (UPS and FedEx). nicely, so i totally have to suitcase my printer and speakers..indeed..

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some people have it good, some people have it bad; but everyone just deals with it. being self-righteous really doesn’t help.

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i think tomorrow night could be fun….

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Requiem aeternam dona ei, 

Domine, et lux perpetua luceat ei. 

Requiescat in pace. 

Amen

 

because shireen, i’m here for you.

Lie About Us

wow, i was convinced this morning that the 855 was NEVER gonna come. omg. sheesh man. even ethel volunteered to pick me in a cab..hahhaa! i met camen on the bus

and so the toes met at harborfront and yeahh..had breakfast..and then we headed to Giant and then went to sentosa..YAY!

beach photos later, when they we get it off ethel..

omg, what WAS i doing!?

emm, yesh..here are the luge pics, on the way up..camen and ethel were TOTALLY freaking out..HAHHAHAA!

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really got me hot. kay. and slightly burnt, not charred, but yeah…

i have the weirdest tan in the history of all tans. i have a sports bra tan. that’s okay. BUT i have finger marks..like..im kinda unevenly burnt. BECAUSE, the spots that im burnt, i could not reach to put sunblock on. OMG. retarded. and we were playing frisbee and stuff.. SERIOUSLY. i asked my dad if it was a rash or a burn. and he went “it looks like a rash la, but i think it’s a burn. you couldnt reach with your sunblock is it?”. ROIGHTO. 

sheesh please. even the toes went ‘whoa, erika, that’s a damn zun rash la, right where your sports bra ends man!’ holy shit.

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winning women.