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i’m alright, I’m just fine and you’re a tool. So, so what?!

Today he asked if I want to jump Ipala and I almost begged for mercy. But I tried anyway. He has this way I suppose. Not technical, not about riding, none of that.

Just ‘sit up and smile’.

And that made all the difference.
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let the spectacle astound you.

This new thing with Karina, I suppose I’ll just go with it, no harm trying right..? And today didnt look all that bad, so we’ll see how we go..

My dear boy however needs to work ‘out’ I must say, he seems to not quite like this arena stuff much anymore.. :/ we’ll see how we go..

Alot of seeing how we go here hey.. Hmm, we’ll start the beginning of the beginning of tomorrow, which is officially the beginning of 2012 as it will unfold, with a burger, shall we..?

most of it came together on the last day and aptly so, i learnt it from riding bit less. and without aids, a major step for me because it’s so ingrained i suppose, i mean HECK, my JOB is teaching people to ride with the right aids.

when i rode today, it felt like it came together- over a time, i admit to have lost touch of the essence- riding being all about being on the same page as the horse I’m on. for a few months, it’s been  a job, a goal, an endless seeking of proving myself and some of it being ‘i can do it too’. and today, i just rode. just rode. and i think it’s felt better than it has in awhile and I’m so glad.

here are some of the highlights of my trip. em, NO. contrary to what you might possibly think after viewing this series, i DID learn a lot and yes, a lot of it was intrinsic but i learnt all the same. i didn’t just eat. hurhurhur…. =D

here’s Timmy or well, Katie’s making friends with him! em, i had a slight run in with him, i also tried a therapy session where i had to work with him. let’s just say that i am WAAAY better with horses than goats.

because we got there a day early, we decided to take a trip to nearest hot-spot Noosa…

and then we took a tractor ride when we got back around the property and this is one of many views of Cooroy mountain

we cooked a few nights and this is one of the BEST sandwiches i have had EVER. we decided to have some smoked ham from the Eumundi Smokehouse with whatever we found in the fridge. might i add that the zucchini salad with buffalo mozzarella was katie’s creation from the previous night and it was AWESOME, i am not a fan of zucchini but it was GREAT!

and then of course, toward the end of our trip we decided to have fish and chippies so we went on a hunt and found THIS in Noosa.. =)

WHOOOOO!!!!! =)))

burgers bigger than faces, for the win!!!

oh um, this was jill’s “small” fries, 3.95AUD. em. yes. smallest portion available to order. so..along with katie’s order of small fries, we STILL couldn’t finish.

luckily, i swapped my fries for calamari. so here’s my grilled barramundi and calamari..

yes, note how the fish and chippies came in a CAKE BOX? i love australia!

here’s our last lunch before heading to the airport, a reasonably priced seaside cafe in Caloundra.

my steak sandwich! which i shared with katie..

jill’s egg benedict

and katie’s smoked salmon and caper open-faced sandwich.

to top it off, we got upgraded to business class on the way back!!!!!! =))))))

best flight EVER!

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so here i am, the day before it all begins. I’m glad we made things better in cooroy, ready to start right. tomorrow it begins and I’m sure it’ll bring ALOT of things for us. i already know the dynamics will change and people will come and go, I’m not sure how to feel. significant people to the program and to me-but well. they need to lead their lives too.

this trip was us coming together, equipping ourselves and saying JUST BRING IT.

(on Peregian Beach, greater  Brisbane)

plus- the -EQUAL Eleven- Damiro, Lando, Nanno, Alarich, Ipala, Karina, Hero, La Bomba, Wallaby, Phil & Joopie.

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on the bright side, I did 2 of my favorite things today. i rode and geeked out.

okay, im not cool being the ONLY geek but delia helped me and that was nice.. =)

tomorrow, i will look forward to a happy system that’s all good and ready to work.

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here are some snaps, courtesy of nat, of my AMAZING ride on roxy those grand 2 weeks ago. well, I’m hoping to re-create what i felt that day on all my projects. uphill climb, but i’ll work on it. i’ve got 2012 to handle things..

see, it was all going okay right? and then…

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oh and then there are afternoons that are fun…

Riding and the change in workplace is one example. Alot to learn but I feel like I’ve come a long way since.

I suppose all the medical stuff stopped by the middle of this year and I feel a pleasant sort of relief actually. Yes I still have alot to deal with just not so min to think about. Alot of it has been a struggle of acceptance because goin to the doctors means you’re still trying to explain it. Now it’s about well accepting that I have these things going on and keeping the effort up to keep dealing.

The company I keep has changed in focus a little bit and don’t know if it’s all excellent and dandy like it seems. It just is I suppose due to the circumstances and I will go with it..

In terms of family, I think there has been love and loss, conflict and peace this whole year, but I’m glad kor’s home and we are working things out with a family effort.

2012 holds quite alot to do and I don’t think I have resolutions this new year. Im just going to take it as it comes..

So, here’s me saying.. Hello 2012, bring it.

I’m kinda just wanting to ride it away.