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on one note, if i didnt already mention, my tinnitus is back to normal. okay, it got wonky on thursday morning. the pneumatic drill noise got intermittent. as of 2 or so in the afternoon yesterday, it’s back to the normal 24/7 sort. im not sure what to feel about this.

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today at work, my work got more interesting. i got to deal with invoices. okay, i hope i dont mess up the payments. WOW. really freaky sorting them out. eww please.

i had a conversation with ethel yesterday about my previous post titled ‘Hakuna Matata’ and how this guy Brad posted a comment. i didnt write the post to receive any comment whatsoever, it’s not that i dont like getting them, i do. i just didnt expect anyone to post anything in response to that post, people usually dont comment on my posts anyway, and even if they did they’d usually just say hi.

she thinks Brad is right and im starting to think it too. if mass and stuff are expressions of an inward feeling, we should just keep to the inward feeling. that’s not to say that mass and such are not important, they are. but, for example, if someone doesnt go to mass doesnt mean that he/she’s a bad catholic. of course, it would be preferred if you did attend mass and did all the things you’re supposed to. but in the end, i think it’s just about me [you] and God. like i say to people and try to apply in my relationships: it’s me and you. NOT me, you and the rest of the world. maybe it’s true.

and think about it, what if God only judged you for what you are and your relationship with him, rather than whether or not you attended mass? ha, i think more(or less people, depending on the way you think about it) would be marked ‘good for heaven’.

so…i shall now pray for a nicer relationship, okay, closer relationship with God. however that works…err, yeah, i’ll work on it. you know, sometimes, i look at my friends, especially jasmine, sam and cheryl and wonder how they have so much faith in God and in prayers and things. that they can manage to see God in everyday stuff that doenst occur to me at all! okay, i may not agree with ALL of it, but i still admire how they have so much trust. like i said, i’ll work on it.

Hakuna Matata

what a wonderful phrase, Hakuna Matata, aint no passing craze!! it means no worries for the end of your days, it’s our problem-free philosophy, Hakuna Matata…

today, jude came over to print some uni stuff, im so glad she’s well..and i hope things work out for her because i honestly believe that she deserves it.

lunch was with the folks at tiong bahru YEAHHHH i dont even know what it is about that coffee shop, i just like it. it’s just yongtaufoo and zaimaifun. but it’s so nice..okay, see, this is the part of me that likes hawker food talking.. im completely obsessed with that coffeeshop.

here is some better news, my cramps are better… the tinnitus is absolutely annoying though…ROAR.

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i shall go for easter vigil this evening, did i tell you? easter vigil mass is my favorite mass of the year. okay, im not exactly too religious, pious or anything like that. i just feel all nice when it’s easter.

this year, good friday didnt hit me at a good time. i happened to think, during stations of the cross, that no, i can’t accept all my crosses. no, i havent yet accepted (even though i sincerely try to make myself believe that i have) my tinnitus and my food intolerances. and as a result, i did not participate in any part of stations or the service, besides going through the motions (standing, kneeling and communion). some people would say that i shouldnt even have the right to celebrate Easter if i didnt go through Holy Week, truly believing, being completely repentant, penitant and feeling the whole spirit of Lent.

so i suppose, yes, im just going (and have so in previous years, even to mass very week) to Easter Vigil for the atmosphere which i very much enjoy (yes, it makes me proud im catholic at easter, it’s one of those times where i think and realise that i havent yet come across any such mass/service, as reverant, meaningful and yet jubilant, with such attention to rite and ritual as an Easter Vigil).

i know that there are many parts of my life which most people, both Catholic/Christian and others, would frown upon. no, i do not abstain from meat on fridays, i don’t go for Lenten Vigil (because i find it boring and very draggy, sleepy - plus because it’s an overnighter, it has a tendency to disrupt my sleep pattern which is an important part for me for medical reasons), i am not in any religious ministry and i do not participate actively at mass. many a time, i do think i’ll be doomed and sent straight to hell. and no, i can’t account for alot of things that i’ve done when it all comes back to me at Judgement Day.

here, i recognize that i am not the most faithful, not the greatest of all catholics and i seem like i like going to church only during the happy times. but i believe in God and go for mass without fail every sunday. as for the other stuff, i’m working it out.

Good Friday…

netizens..

i have news.

1. my tinnitus is wonky. i hope its the neuromonics that’s working.

2. it’s not that im not shy, but i am cramping. badly. and its times like these i wish i was a guy.

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Down the Via Dolorosa in Jerusalem that day
The soldiers tried to clear the narrow street
But the crowd pressed in to see
The Man condemned to die on Calvary

He was bleeding from a beating, there were stripes upon His back
And He wore a crown of thorns upon His head
And He bore with every step
The scorn of those who cried out for His death

Down the Via Dolorosa called the way of suffering
Like a lamb came the Messiah, Christ the King,
But He chose to walk that road out of
His love for you and me.
Down the Via Dolorosa, all the way to Calvary.

Por la Via Dolorosa, triste dia en Jerusalem
Los saldados le abrian paso a Jesus
Mas la gente se acercaba
Para ver al que llevaba aquella cruz

Por la Via Dolorosa, que es la via del dolor
Como oveja vino Cristo, Rey, Senor
Y fue El quien quiso ir por su amor por ti y por mi
Por la Via Dolorosa al Calvario y a morir

The blood that would cleanse the souls of all men
Made its way through the heart of Jerusalem.

Down the Via Dolorosa called the way of suffering
Like a lamb came the Messiah, Christ the King
But He chose to walk that road out of His love for you and me
Down the Via Dolorosa, all the way to Calvary.

May It Be

work was abit better today.

i was late, i missed the 167 and WOW, i hate being stressed in the morning, period.

please make it stop, i just want to live my life.

If I Would…

olright. today was a relaxing day. i watched Underworld and well, hung about, looked for service apartments in Perth for my parents and yeah..collected lunch for mom and i from uni’s and then bought dinner for mom and i…

oh, and i was job hunting too! well, we’ve not gotten anywhere, but there are 2 opportunities from dad. i actually wanted to find something for myself this time but i told my folks about it and they’re sort of on the look out for me! haha, i suppose i shouldnt complain, im not sure how many folks would do that. i have mixed feelings about it though. i like how they keep a look out for me and often give me opportunities; sometimes i just want to see if i could do it myself. by trusting them however, i can rest assured that the companies suggested would be legitimate and i’d be treated okay. of course im on my own once i take the job, but i dont have to worry or be so nervous about things. this as opposed to looking for something on my own, which would leave me with all the normal anxiety.

im really looking forward to tomorrow night. i haven’t seen the toes, cheryl, jasmine, joyce and camen and sam (but she’s in china, damn), in like 5 weeks. omg, and they’ve gotta tell me ALL about bangkok please! oh, and im collecting my umbrella from joyce too! HA, since frikkin december…

tomorrow, i’ve to go for the neuromonics fitting and then i’ve to go to mtE for the second cervical cancer jab and to get my probiotic-pills..and then…i’ll come back shower and hit city hall for dinner..sounds fun. i hope the neuromonics thing works out..

Say Yes

today i went for 9mass and it ended at ten sharp. wow, almost unheard of in holy spirit as far as i can remember..

i must say i enjoyed The Leap Years. not a GOOD movie, but heartwarming and nice..

i want a doughnut. now. noisynoisynoisy!

Leapt

yesterday was a good, good day!

SHRM went okay, i didnt know some, but it’s alright, i think i did the best i could. ethel came by after my exam and we had lunch, spent some time and then hopped over to tp to get my new phone. im so glad she prevents me from making rash decisions. i saved alot of money yesterday, seeing as how i didnt trade in my 6233 with starhub. we sold it for $135 at the second hand shop.

IJ was next and we met nicm! oh, well, that’s miss moosa for the rest of us..it was pretty fun and i quite enjoy this bunch of PLs i must say, they’re very good company.

we met charmaine leow for dinner!! we had many good conversations and yeah, here here!

i know i’ve posted this one before, but well, it just looks nice..

and we went to aria after coffeeclub…  oh, and im so glad i know mackie!

can i please show off someone’s talent???

WOW!

by the way, might the pictures look better? i know some are abit blur, but hmm, im wondering if there’s a big difference..

Exams

hey, what do you know, the exams are upon me once again!

haha! roight…im taking my CRM tomorrow from 2-4 and my SHRM from 9-11 on friday, after whcih i shall be going out. which would be the first in almost 3 weeks.

yesterday, i didnt play warcraft, and neither did i play today! haha, i was helping charmaine leow with her notebook selection and then i was having some fun on skype.

i dont think i enjoyed yesterday very much from about 4pm onward til say 5.15pm. there was this big mix-up about whether i’ve to go to school to get my exam timetable or not..well, here’s the thing, in the end, i did. so mom took me at about 445 and i got my timetable at about 515, all the time from 4 i was all anxious - mostly because i’ve plans on friday afternoon so an exam on friday afternoon would really not be good. anyways, im happy with the final timetable and will faithfully attend my SPECIAL exam..

today, uni fell down in the morning. she looked fine when i went over for lunch though. i had lucky noodools and she was all cranky. haha, uni gets like that, kinda moody and pissed off. but after a while, she gets all smiley and happy again, for no reason we know of. haha! it seems to everyone that she’s clean forgotten that she’d fallen down this morning, no complaints of pain or soreness or anything like that..let’s hope it’s not too serious.

i was talking to eeee just now about how mama just has certain ways about her..like she’ll ALWAYS have to do things a certain way and she’s so fussy. eeee just said ‘ah yah, that’s her WAY, you dont know meh???’…and so i’ve christianed it the Tao of Uni…

lalala….i was just thinking about it. i like playing warcraft, by myself. it reminds me of what i used to play, it was called wargames, complete with very bad graphics and very dull colors. what a relief with warcraft..it’s abit easier on the eyes.. not having to wonder whether a particular thing was part of my unit or part of a nearby tree. i want my exams to be over so i can play! oh, why do i not want to play online? a) i suck, b) my connection’s horrific, c) it’s stressful. i get stressed when i play myself, what more with others? d) i can’t be bothered to communicate when im playing. and e) well, i just plain suck.

let’s go…CRM baby, YEAHHHHHHHH!

Warcraft III: Reign of Chaos

that’s what took up my time today..

yeahh, took my mind off things. i’ll know when my exams are tomorrow by 4/5pm…i can’t frikkin wait. and my fucking diet is killing me. i need to get on a more interesting, NORMAL diet like ASAP.

you know what? i think im gonna stick to normal food for now. each time i try something new, i get a) sick or b) allergic/sensitive to it. seriously, i think i’ll just be on normal..hawker stuff and be frikkin boring.

and its been a noisy day. like i mean how fucking bad can it get?

anyway, i’ll try the expansion pack - Warcraft III: the frozen throne tomorrow and see how it goes. i just need my exams to be over. and oh YES! i could have been in bangkok! yes, looking for a MUCH needed BAG. BUT NO. im waiting for my exams to not just be over, but be ANNOUNCED! just great man. i mean there are some perks to being in singapore, but COME ON man, i think i bangkok might have been fun!

hey, thank you! and congratulations on that job! 

Dinner at the Ritz Carlton

…with ethel and her family, her hk granma plus her bro’s girl-stacey. i realise that i dont mind talking to her pap about travel and stuff. he heard i was going to bangkok and he said it might not be a bad idea to check out the temples for the architecture and stuff. yeah, and the floating market or something..

okay. i am frikkin stuffed.

IEMP went okay, i think. ends up i sat for the paper with alex! ha, the poor guy’s dislocated his elbow..ouch…yeah, so he’s typing on a computer instead of writing…our invigilator was nice! we were talking about cny and stuff before the paper..

i am stuffed, did i mention? holy frikkin hell.

wow, whee!

oh, and i need to pack.

thank you…