sometimes, some things come easy. sometimes, some things aren’t.
sometimes, people are on your side. sometimes, they aren’t.
sometimes, things are understood. sometimes, they aren’t.
sometimes, people think i’m good. sometimes, i’m their worst enemy.
i suppose it’s the latter in all the above. there are always two sides, people are just on the easier side.
9mass in the morning, i was fantastically late please. omg.
i met ethel and we went to look for shades. we’ve been meaning to get shades but either it slips our minds or yeah, feeling stingy. she does very well quelling my ‘impulsive shopper’ alter-ego. mooooo..therefore, i am in the possession of ethel’s beloved, inherited pair of adidas..*chants to self* i must not lose it. i must not lose it….
while shade-shopping, we were having a decision-making conversation on whether i should spend 50 bucks on a pair. okay. and there was this old fella with a limp, who walked really close from behind me, between ethel and i, almost breathing into her chest and then away. okay. like wtf. who says that was obvious? not obvious at all what, just stare down someone’s shirt..WTH, i was SO incredibly pissed. like hello..we’re having a conversation, like go find your own chick please..or like go beautify your wife…(regardless what he chooses, it wont make a diff, he wont be able to do much since he’s got trouble even walking) sheesh man, i mean, dont get me wrong, i dont hate old people, i just think that some are just SO weird..eww…gave both of us the creeps.. 
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tamara’s party! i had fun, we played pool-monkey and captain’s ball in the pool oh, this is polo club.and just to jog your memory, tamara used to ride with the whole filthy animal gang! for the uninformed, we were The Filthy Animals whenever we took part in club-team-dressage competitions..hahha, the FA consisted of Joette, Ursula, Tamara and I, and for a short time, Isaac.
lilbro was with me and we met tamara’s sister, who used to ride too- jessica and her man, nicholas and then a lot of their church buddies and yeahh, some family members..mm-hmm, and i found out that nicholas’s sisters were from IJ too, what a coincidence! and tamara’s family friend was lilbro’s english teacher in henry park primary too..hahha! what a fantastically small world!
quite, quite funny. thanks to kor for this one!
meepmeep..
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today, i learnt something. that if you gave someone the time of day, made a conversation and both you and this person are not facing each other, a conversation can be good. and sometimes the person may open up more. i think it’s something to do with not looking at or facing the other person. i think i like it sometimes. and i always like getting to know people better. i think i get a better idea about where the person is coming from, in terms of his/her behavior or what the person says or why he/she reacts a certain way. i really think it’s important.
oh and i dont mind jay chou. okay, some of his songs are kinda strange but yeah, most of them sound pleasant. different but pleasant. err, of course i dont understand anything he’s mumblin-bumblin about but yeah…hahahhaaha and i still maintain he has eyes like coin-slots and wonder how he sees out of them..
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because i think you’re worth it and everyone deserves to have someone around, a chummy-ol-buddy or a significant other.
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because i love you.
monday was a horrific day for me.
1. i got hit by a car.
2. my tinnitus got intermittent again.
3. i fell down!
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tuesday. i took the day off and gave the shri plaque that’s been sitting on my desk to the lecturers. then i was compelled to sit with them for lunch..hahah..roight..abit weird..but its cool. it seems there’s only 41 people taking HR this sem..following this..
wtf. my shoe-shopping did not werk out. seriously screwed up. and to hell with my world of sports voucher. fracking people..got me to go from outlet to outlet to find what i want, each saying the next outlet ‘definitely has what [you] i want’. frikkin hell. i just met dad at borders in a very tired state and bought a book, i used the borders 20bucks i had…
i came home and yesh…i ordered online..please click here to view. it’s not the one i was hunting for from world of sports. seriously..bad, bad experience. i dint lash out at anyone thinking it was my off-day, what right have i to screw another person’s day at work right?
eeee’s birthday dinner at jumbo seafood serangoon gardens country club cos dad had a voucher..uncle weng came..k, uncle weng is eeee’s brother who like never ever comes for family dinners..i dont know why…
the siblings, and they’re BOTH smiling!!!
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im getting DAMN frustrated with this frackin tinnitus basically.
on the bright side, we had dinner at mama’s. and betty bought me coffee from vietnam, YAY! 
and err..im going to dubai! err yeah. it’s all fine and dandy, BUT its, over the weekend. that means no riding, and yeah, other stuff..so, im quite bummed.
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im so pissed. i’ve been fucking itchy last night and tonight. im beyond caring what i should and shouldnt eat. seriously, wtf. i think and abstain, i itch. i dont care, i itch or i sneeze or get one of those ‘ventolin episodes’. makes no difference. seriously man. i am SICK of it.
dont even get me started on my tinnitus.
Content with Hermia! No; I do repent
The tedious minutes I with her have spent.
Not Hermia but Helena I love:
Who will not change a raven for a dove?
The will of man is by his reason sway’d;
And reason says you are the worthier maid.
Things growing are not ripe until their season
So I, being young, till now ripe not to reason;
And touching now the point of human skill,
Reason becomes the marshal to my will
And leads me to your eyes, where I o’erlook
Love’s stories written in love’s richest book.
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.: my pirate - i’m your lady, and you are my man :. says:
do you have work.?
My _____ is like…Wo! says:
hmm…no..haha, im reading shakespeare..
.: my pirate - i’m your lady, and you are my man :. says:
omg..i dunno what to do..
My _____ is like…Wo! says:
this is the play your school did that we both dint understand..
My _____ is like…Wo! says:
http://shakespeare.mit.edu/midsummer/full.html
.: my pirate - i’m your lady, and you are my man :. says:
oh man..are you serious love..?
.: my pirate - i’m your lady, and you are my man :. says:
the pple are back from thailand..and we’ve got food!
My _____ is like…Wo! says:
=)
My _____ is like…Wo! says:
yeah, serious! and what food have you sweet maid?
.: my pirate - i’m your lady, and you are my man :. says:
hahah…=) those er pork floss sticks..
.: my pirate - i’m your lady, and you are my man :. says:
cuttlefish..
.: my pirate - i’m your lady, and you are my man :. says:
they had my cheesecake a while ago..=)
My _____ is like…Wo! says:
what foreign delicacies they bestow, how they find the cheesecake in your tow?
.: my pirate - i’m your lady, and you are my man :. says:
OMG! sweetheart!
.: my pirate - i’m your lady, and you are my man :. says:
hahaha…
.: my pirate - i’m your lady, and you are my man :. says:
they quite enjoyed it cheri..
My _____ is like…Wo! says:
so good taste you thus inspired, from them to you, what transpired?
.: my pirate - i’m your lady, and you are my man :. says:
love…you’re quite good ah…
.: my pirate - i’m your lady, and you are my man :. says:
they asked when’s the next cake coming..
.: my pirate - i’m your lady, and you are my man :. says:
hahaha
.: my pirate - i’m your lady, and you are my man :. says:
oh oh..i’m gonna bake a cake for some party dad’s attending this weekend..
My _____ is like…Wo! says:
to what do i deserve the sweet maid’s appraisal, certainly fruit of your future effort will be fit for kings.
.: my pirate - i’m your lady, and you are my man :. says:
and fit for my pirate…
My _____ is like…Wo! says:
piracy be not encouraged, for this is theft and should be discouraged
My _____ is like…Wo! says:
k. im running out of ideas…i think, its faster if i spoke normally
because she bakes..
we, baked the cheesecake
cream cheese is good for you!
biscuit base!
almost out zee oven..
daphne (ethel’s cousin and her friend baked some bread for a school project)..
this is the yeast
and yes, i got my hands dirty playing with dough..
and yeah, i was forced into ETHEL’s apron.. you can laugh now.
but something happened with the dough, it was too soft apparntly, so they decided to follow the recipe with half and play with the other half..guess which is which..
and ethel’s sister can REALLY climb!
and well, a nice normal shot would be fitting..
yesterday i realized that i think i need to be putting more concentration into my work. and i realize im doing more than i should, simply because im not being as mindful as i should be on certain things..
at aldente(esplanade), it was a practical thing, i was actively serving plates and i know exactly when people are dissatisfied because their hungry and keep hounding you. your mistakes do not carry over to tomorrow or some other day when perhaps you might have forgotten you even might have overlooked. when being a waiter, its a process you’re familiar with. they come, they order, you serve, they eat, call for the bill, pay and leave. repeat.
at greenbook, we were doing mindless stuff, like -do or dont do- makes no diff, but its really nice if we did. there was no process, you called everyone on an endless list telling them exactly the same thing like singing a song that’s become second-nature to you.
at han chew’s, i was taught the process and it was simple. the products came, i sorted them, they took the pictures, i may/may not help, i gather and make sure all the products are back together and i let someone collect them. at times, im helping to source for perhaps, a printer or a location for a shoot. at other times, im scheduling casting/auditions for models and taking casting photos, sorting them and sending them over to the client.
k, maybe cos it’s my first office-office job and what i do, actually impacts certain things in a bigger picture.now, what i do/don’t do or dont do well can make better, halt or hold up an entire process. and this process, im still trying to figure out. i keep finding out something new and terms i’ve never heard of. yes, there is alot to learn and there are people who are willing to help and will help, if they only had the time. i do things that are given to me as individual tasks, knowing that it impacts the general process but i dont really know the steps before and after it. i know the process from a layman’s point of view, the logical way that things should be done when organizing a convention overseas. what i dont know is all the little things that come along in this process: i dont know the details. i want to help, i really do, but sometimes, i think i’m more a hindrance than a help. and i guess sometimes i get things wrong because i dont really know what it’s for. and this work i do, carries over to tomorrow, the day after, maybe even after a convention is over.
i was told i might go to dubai sometime early may. and im looking forward to it, if i really am going. why? because it’s a running around kind of job, the kind im better at. like a practical (i hate to use the word but), hands-on kinda job. it’s okay if its physical, like really running around, getting sweaty and stuff, because i know that i coud actually be a help. by doing the running around, people who are more skilled at other things can do those other things, without the hassle and then i can learn things as i run around and put two and two together.
on the bright side, i had a pleasant lunch yesterday, also with slightly different people. and my evening was great! 
k, it got abit tense later in the evening, but it’s all good now on my end..
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riding..hey, these are pics of a pic..but yeah, we’ve been immortalized!
(L-R) urs on sonia, me on smint, victoria on mimo and yingjie on doc..
(L-R) me, yingjie, urs, victoria and daniel.
err, i just posted yesterday’s post cos it seems it was on draft for the whole of last night, i must have forgotten to hit ‘publish’ again..
anyways!!
after some major discussion with daphne, she decided to get me in touch with her friend from aus-ed to help with my UWA application..okay..and so i actually spoke to him and he was really helpful and really reassured me. yes, i was getting cranky cos IDP didnt seem too helpful at all this couple of months..(thanks here is due to daphne!)i just came back from dinner with my folks and yeah, i checked the online application tracker thingy and i’ve been offered a place at UWA! woo-hoo!!! k. mixed feelings here. on one hand, its kinda confirmed, im going. and on the other: i’m going. err yeah. it’s so..final? i guess i’ll really feel it if i get accepted to the hostel..hmmm..
work was pleasant today..made a couple of calls, got confuzzled with visas..yesh…omg..i guess there is alot about travel and the world that i’ll learn in this job. i had lunch with audrey and frances for a change with daphne and that was pleasant..
and now i hear that ethel’s got an offer to uwa too!! RAWR!
oh, here are some office snaps..HAHA..this is my desj..okay, part of it..notice the packet drink..it was this horrific blackcurrant jelly drink that was free from watsons that claudia gave me..wow..it was strange! 
this is nicole..cam-shy cos she thinks she looks a wreck, hardly, but well..
and thats claudia walking and audrey at her desk..okay, here’s a candid one of claudia..
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smitten.
i just read ethel’s post about phobias.. im quite skeptical of the ones she’s listed (obviously because they sound SO amazing, she needed some feedback, im sure)..they sound amazingly weird..HAHAHAHA! (sorry to interrupt, but i am not ‘ethelophobic’ *chuckles at my own lame joke*) but i suppose the greeks had their way and so do the folk/scientist who name stuff that perhaps had no words for them before now.
and so i created my own phobia-word..im a hardcore tinnitaphobe because…i hate tinnitus..you know WHY? because it makes me have insanely long days (defined by the number of hours im awake) and very short nights (defined by the hours i am asleep). i slept at 5 this morning. yeah, it’s been like 1am or so for a quite a while with the ocassional ‘bad time’ and last night/this morning WAS a ‘bad time’. as a result, i was not functioning quite so well today. lunch was entertaining though..and i had the dessert i’ve been wanting!!! YAY! the one with the barley and the taukee-thing! yes, when im stressed/pressured/not feeling too good, i eat! 
it really helps.
i’ve decided to go on clarityne longer-term again after stopping for really long cos i can’t be bothered to think about my diet. i know if i’m getting all super-reactive to stuff i should stop the cause, ie, the particular food/allergen im ingesting or coming into contact with. but come on already, im avoiding SO many things, i want to just be like everyone else, who ACTUALLY picks their food SOLELY on what they FEEL like eating instead of their limitations. and i’ve got my ventolin inhaler, so really, i just want to eat what i wanna eat.
and what the fuck. my UWA application la.. and NO. i dont have a back-up plan. *smacks head and walks about dejectedly wondering why it’s so majorly delayed*
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on a lighter note, im now on firefox3beta5, just for the heck of it and because it has a way nicer mac default theme than firefox2. also..i’m on de.licio.us..okay..so i shall be moving my bookmarks over.. this ensures that i have my bookmarks online and i can access them from home or the office when im browsing! it’ll take some time though..hahhaaa!
tomorrow i’ll meet the folks and shu e at polo club for dinner, i dont think i’ll mind..shu e’s quite cool.. and then friday, im OUT! HA! CANT WAIT!
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chant “GO!” to carol everyone!
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so into you…
