Hakuna Matata

what a wonderful phrase, Hakuna Matata, aint no passing craze!! it means no worries for the end of your days, it’s our problem-free philosophy, Hakuna Matata…

today, jude came over to print some uni stuff, im so glad she’s well..and i hope things work out for her because i honestly believe that she deserves it.

lunch was with the folks at tiong bahru YEAHHHH i dont even know what it is about that coffee shop, i just like it. it’s just yongtaufoo and zaimaifun. but it’s so nice..okay, see, this is the part of me that likes hawker food talking.. im completely obsessed with that coffeeshop.

here is some better news, my cramps are better… the tinnitus is absolutely annoying though…ROAR.

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i shall go for easter vigil this evening, did i tell you? easter vigil mass is my favorite mass of the year. okay, im not exactly too religious, pious or anything like that. i just feel all nice when it’s easter.

this year, good friday didnt hit me at a good time. i happened to think, during stations of the cross, that no, i can’t accept all my crosses. no, i havent yet accepted (even though i sincerely try to make myself believe that i have) my tinnitus and my food intolerances. and as a result, i did not participate in any part of stations or the service, besides going through the motions (standing, kneeling and communion). some people would say that i shouldnt even have the right to celebrate Easter if i didnt go through Holy Week, truly believing, being completely repentant, penitant and feeling the whole spirit of Lent.

so i suppose, yes, im just going (and have so in previous years, even to mass very week) to Easter Vigil for the atmosphere which i very much enjoy (yes, it makes me proud im catholic at easter, it’s one of those times where i think and realise that i havent yet come across any such mass/service, as reverant, meaningful and yet jubilant, with such attention to rite and ritual as an Easter Vigil).

i know that there are many parts of my life which most people, both Catholic/Christian and others, would frown upon. no, i do not abstain from meat on fridays, i don’t go for Lenten Vigil (because i find it boring and very draggy, sleepy – plus because it’s an overnighter, it has a tendency to disrupt my sleep pattern which is an important part for me for medical reasons), i am not in any religious ministry and i do not participate actively at mass. many a time, i do think i’ll be doomed and sent straight to hell. and no, i can’t account for alot of things that i’ve done when it all comes back to me at Judgement Day.

here, i recognize that i am not the most faithful, not the greatest of all catholics and i seem like i like going to church only during the happy times. but i believe in God and go for mass without fail every sunday. as for the other stuff, i’m working it out.